PUSH&PULL

» Sunday, September 20, 2009 / -2:40:00 AM

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

Sungai buaya banyak buaya,

Pucuk paku banyak paku,

Hari Raya dah pun tiba,
Bila kau nak mintak maaf kat aku?

Dear Kak Nadiah,

i know i'm very lazy and complacent most of the time during tuition. i always lie on the table and start whining. and without fail, i know i always make your blood boil every saturday. and i know that if my mother were to ever allow you to slap me, you would already have done so. hehe. as today is Hari Raya, i would like to apologise for my wrongdoings and the time when i misbehave. i know you would listen to me every saturday about my never ending hot stuff story although i am very long-winded. whatever, you have to only bear with me for the next 1 month. i'm very sorry for being so spoilt. hehe. ;)

Dear Izdi,

since last year, we haven't been that close. but you accept me for who i am and you laugh to my lame jokes. and when my mum give you a lift, you know how to make yourself comfortable in the car and talk to my mum about all the Korean Drama and that makes my mum love you. you know that i hate playing badminton with you because you always make me run like a crazy horse while you stand at just one position. but i guess, its all thanks to your drilling that i'm forever cute. hehe. i admit there were times when i talked bad about you. and so, i would like to apologise for all that. please get well soon, i want to play badminton.

Dear Naz,

thank you for letting me win the Cold War with you. hehe. i know i'm very stupid during tuition but i'm just trying to make you feel like a genius. haha. thank you for being Kak Naz and knocking some sense into me. i'm sorry for not taking your art file. but you know some things happen for a reason right? its relieving to see that you've not changed a bit and you still understand me each time i complain about my father. i know i have so many sins, you too. haha. so, i'm very sorry if there were times when my jokes were really hurtful. i know i'm so vocal. so, please do forgive me. nenek keropok rocks!! :D

Dear Fida,

its a pleasure to get back with you again. i promise, after my O level, i will cycle down to your house and bring you your favourite cheese fries. sorry for being an ass all the time. thank you for everything we had before. from sisterz till now. and please know that i'm only 7 bustops away form you. i'm glad that we can still talk. and i'm sorry that i accidentally shouted at you. you know what i mean, fida. ;)

Dear Fong,

thank you for tolerating my nonsense in class. i know i'm so irritating that you just have to ignore me at times but i know that now you are already missing me right? haha. i know there were times when you just feel like strangling me but thats what i'm for right? ask julie. haha. i'm sorry for always talking to you during Social Studies and you ended up getting scolded by Ms Yzelman. i'm sorry for constantly making you listen to my riddles over and over again. i'm sorry for squeezing your shoulder real hard when i walked behind you. thanks for being so smart and teaching me when i'm such a dungu. i can't wait to see you on Tuesday!!

Dear Julie,

firstly, you have to know that i miss you very much. i know this no longer mean anything to you but well, i just want you to know. earlier tonight, i was sitting in front of the door hoping that you would appear at my doorstep to send me your kuih raya like you always do. perhaps that was too much to ask for. i know you will never appear even when i pray so hard because i know you are still mad at me. maybe we have changed as an individual but i have always pray that things between us will change for the best when you say that time heal all wounds. it was very awkward when we meet after a very long time. probably, no more common things to talk about. i know if you have only one bullet left, you would shoot me first. i know 99% of the time i'm being such an asshole and i'm truly sorry for that. i'm sorry for not being there when you needed me the most. i'm sorry for putting all the blame on you. i'm sorry for being so rude and everything along that line. i am seriously very sorry and i regret all those stupidity. i have always been cherishing the times we had together, everything we did together, every single thing we shared and many more. please know that i'm very sorry for everything and i miss you very very very much. :(