AINI'S

2010-10-02T00:45:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA. prangai. ni lagi satu klakar dawg!

2010-09-30T23:39:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA. ni cheebye dawg klakar siak.

2010-08-05T00:46:00.000+08:00

As of tomorrow, I'll devote my time to studying and solely studying. I won't play as much as I did because exams is at the end of the month!! So far, I have been doing pretty good in school except that Econs is being such a bitch and being so hard to understand. What do you expect from someone who sleeps during Econs lecture. Haha. I just can't resist the temptation to sleep especially during Econs lecture because Chee Li Lian is so boring to the freaking core and the moment she open her mouth, you just feel like your head is spinning and you need to doze off. I'm serious. She is THAT boring! Since this is the last week of the semester, my class are quite emo. After every tutorial, we will continuously thank the tutor for teaching us and being the best tutor.

Ms Anne Marie has been exceptionally nice to me ever since our first ICA. I just feel the bond that we share and how she understand what I feel inside. The other time during pre-presentation, I was upset that Zhong Da did not do his job but instead he presented the research that was done by our group. Usually during meetings, I will be the one saying everything but because on that day I was so upset, I sat at the corner and listened instead. Ms Anne Marie was looking at me straight in the eyes like signalling to me what is happening. I didn't tell her on the spot but instead I email-ed her what actually happened and she sort of settle it us for us. She is the best yaw! I take back my words in the previous post. Hehe.

Okay, I have my final presentation tomorrow at 8. Wish me luck! :D

thursday is so lame! -,-

2010-05-20T11:05:00.000+08:00

I just find Thursday a very ridiculous day. I come to school for 4 hours and freeze in D405 and at the end of the 4 hours, I never gain anything. Because Ms Anne Marie is obviously not doing her job by teaching us exactly from her slides. Can you believe this, for the past 5 weeks, we've been doing nothing but only finding samples for good news. Its the same thing every single week. We have to spend 4 freaking hours just to find for the same sample letter. It is so irritating! To top it all, we have an online blog to actually comment on current affairs which again I find it useless. Its useful that we have such things but the nonsense thing is that Ms Anne Marie just won't check our comments nor edit it. And for the letter samples, she won't even read it but she will make us send it to her on every single lesson. What on Earth is this woman trying to do?!

On a lighter note, I sit beside people who are always updated. So they teach me 'good stuff' on the net. As for today, I learnt a good trick from Zhi Xun which is so cool and awesome! I'm so going to do it now.

2010-05-04T23:25:00.001+08:00

this made my tuesday despite the hard time during econs. cool shit! dope shizaaaayyyyy. :D

2010-04-29T11:35:00.000+08:00

the whole class is busy playing games on facebook. i feel like i'm in a lan gaming shop!

SBM! SBM! SBM!

2010-04-17T01:24:00.000+08:00

SBM Orientation was awesome! i didn't regret a single second being there. ceh.. haha. anyway, this is my class, FM02. this is worth my every sweat and my every scream!

you broke the jinx!

2010-03-25T23:17:00.001+08:00

this was awesome and cool shit!!! because i'm a sucker for food, i ate for 2 hours! best!!

2010-03-23T20:49:00.000+08:00

as today is his 7 months, little aydin had his photo taken for his passport. alah! so cute right? look at the aunty lah! ;)

BIG BIG toy!

2010-03-13T15:21:00.000+08:00

i've gotten my new BIG toy and i just can't stop playing with it lah! okay bye i'm off for lunch. :D

2010-03-09T14:44:00.001+08:00

fong, kau klakar sak. haha. yesterday i was messaging her and telling her about the IT fair that we will be going this friday and fong was being such a bimbo. hahaha.

Me: Ya, i'm buying laptop this friday. i'm buying HP.
Fong: Huh? you buying handphone?

hahahaha. i immediately called her and laugh when she picked up the phone. haha. fong, fong.

2010-03-08T23:37:00.002+08:00

friday faster come! lai lai! kuai tien!

2010-03-07T19:06:00.000+08:00

alamak! ni PPP buat gua binget sia. cepat lah friday!

thank you, terima kasih, xie xie ni.

2010-03-05T23:38:00.000+08:00

to julie, geraldine, fong, ying ying, sabrina, kak nadiah, cathryn, faz, yasmin, kak syahirah, andrew, dinika, ishmam, eugene, hakeem, jit, yuting, kak ayu, liyuan, daniel tan, vivian, hilmi, peirong, samson, caijia, yuru, henry, yen, lai mun, jaslyn, kah jing, lorenzo, marilyn, zoey, kenie, xiu en, eri, mardhiah, devaki, katherine, michelle, andrea, grace, lydia, yong xin, karen, charmaine, pei yun thank you very much for making my 18th a memorable one and for singing birthday song for so many times each time you see me. for now, lets get back to ica. tsk!

Beware of her ah! She's in banking and finance. Put password on your inbox. Really, really.

2010-03-04T12:25:00.003+08:00

Trudie teo, I am very serious when I told you off in school just a minute ago. My close friends doesn't even read my inbox and I really want you to respect my privacy as much as I respect yours. For goodness sake, read your own inbox okay asshole! Cheebye!! Spoil my freaking birthday eve!

dear andrew,

2010-03-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

you were the tallest guy in naval base and you know each time i talk to you while walking, i just refuse to look up. and now that you are already 20, i hope you have stopped growing. all the best for your future and see you around.

2010-03-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

i skipped school yesterday because i slept at 2 the day before and i had a hard time getting out of bed so when my mum left for work, i continued sleeping till 1. today, i spent the whole day doing the powerpoint again and writing my script. this whole thing that i've been busy doing is my ICA 3 for communication skills on friday. i have a freaking ICA on my birthday! melvyn chew, you better not ruin my 18th birthday i tell you!

2010-03-01T01:06:00.000+08:00

i have no idea why i was made to study design. i am so confused on what to do on every wednesday despite being the president of my team. i would be so enthusiastic in the morning and after break, i would be yawning away and relaxing. i want this PPP to end so that i can start my real course and study what i'm interested in. faster leh 12 march!

buang, i studied funding the other day and i tell you it was fun! it is good for the both of us because we always spend money on stupid things right. you won't regret this, seriously. tell me once you get your posting okay.

fuck it, bozo!

2010-02-25T21:45:00.000+08:00

I don't want to rely on you to bring me joy as much as I don't want you to rely on me to bring you joy. I don't expect you to complete me and I don't want you to feel that way too. I am responsible for my own happiness.

2010-02-20T20:56:00.000+08:00

To Siti Norhafidah,

Happy 18th Birthday. All the best to you and take good care of yourself. you still owe me a cycling expedition ah.

To Carolyn Cheong,

Happy 17th Birthday. Have fun in JC and study hard okay. I see you next week.

2010-02-18T23:55:00.001+08:00

It was 5:1 so i'll put my ego down for now. Please, no judgement.

2010-02-09T21:47:00.000+08:00

why bother sia? let it be lah. at least she has something to look forward to in life unlike you. why be such a bitch and start giving negative comments? don't be so irritating can or not? demoralise people only. slap your bloody pussy then you know ah.

2010-02-07T19:10:00.000+08:00

i am so sick now. with fever, flu and crazy headache. but i can't just sleep and waste time because i have to do my retail and marketing homework which is due the week after chinese new year but everybody has been messaging me telling that its due tomorrow. and at this very moment, i feel like eating m&m and just m&m. can somebody please be nice to me and buy me m&m? please.... :( :( :(

2010-02-04T20:37:00.000+08:00

the thing that i was standing on was a weighing machine that could only withstand people below 70kg of body mass. anybody who stand on it and that thing breaks, means you are above 70kg. so to people who wants to feel light, please come to my house and take your weight. the estimation weight is 0kg-69kg. i made it during my design module and i was so happy that my classmates of different body mass could stand on it. big achievement sia! such a motivation to start my poly life. ;)

2010-01-28T22:21:00.000+08:00

i am enjoying school now except the fact that someone read my messages on the second day of school. lectures can be fun at times because the lecturers are funny and they make you laugh during the 5 hours. my group members have been very open-minded and not judgemental towards one another. on monday i had introduction to retail and marketing and the whole 5 hours the lecturer was talking to himself as everyone was busy yawning and sharing stories about their weekends while i was busy biting my nails and looking around. no school for me on tuesday and back on wednesday with introduction to design. i know its like not related to my course but because we had to invent something, it became pretty exciting! thursday, i had entrepreneurship and we were taught on how to start business and failures that entrepreneurs face overtime. friday, i'll be having communication skills. for now, lets pray i pass my communication skills in-class assessment. please please please..

2010-01-21T23:26:00.000+08:00

fuck comm skills lah! we barely know anything about technical writing and we will be having in-class assessment tomorrow. this is so ridiculous lah and all the dpa students are so excited to fail this.

2010-01-17T16:06:00.000+08:00

i will be going for leadership camp tomorrow and school will start on wednesday for me. i'm so excited for it but at the same time not so as i won't be able to go out as and when i like it and i can't sleep all day and sit infront of the computer all day long. its okay, its okay. there are better things to do out there. i know right! ;) hehehe.

2010-01-15T15:08:00.001+08:00

i had a very funny dream last night. i dreamt that i went to fida's house and while she was bathing, i on her laptop and start singing, thinking that she won't hear me sing. but when i was just about to leave her house, she said to me, "aini, you've got a nice voice. hidden talent ah!" hahahaha.

to new beginnings!

2010-01-13T12:27:00.000+08:00

look at how wet geraldine is!!

so the results were out and i'm happy with mine. i'm going to nanyang poly taking fund management. so i went to school with geraldine and lucia on that day and only God knows how fast my heart was beating at that moment. everybody in the hall was sweating like pigs and we kept looking at the teachers especially ms chia and mrs koh. mr teo told us about the improvement made and how many subjects were above national average and we have earned the juniors another half day. then we had to stand according to our index number to collect our result slip and when i was standing infront of ms chia, i was busy look at my grades that mr loong had to shout at me to take the newspaper and booklet. then i walked to the back and laughed and waited for fong. when fong turned behind i opened my arms and we were hugging and shouting like cheebye! so we sat down and looked at our grades yet again to confirm and we started asking around. we waited for ms yzelman at the hall and the moment she stepped in the hall, i went up to her and hug her and she carried me sia. haha. so happy like fuck lah right! mr teo was going around asking about our individual result. after everything, we went down to the canteen and mdm sheila met us to remind about the movie date. okay, thats all lah!

2010 lai-ing liao!

2009-12-31T23:56:00.001+08:00

i know the '08 and 15 of the '09 4E graduates are looking forward to 2010 because its time to be officially legal! its time to learn driving, start watching M18 movies, go clubbing and many many crazy things. 2009 was bittersweet. i learnt many things which made me a stronger person and to accept everything with an open heart.

Integrity 4-3,
you guys were great. the bonds we shared for the last 2 years was awesome. there may be hatred every now and then but at the end of the day, i am very blessed to be a part of this class. now, as we go separate ways to realise our dreams, i hope we will still keep in touch and still meet up to eat together.

Julie,
things are better for us now and i'm very thankful for that. i am very happy to get to sit down with you and talk and laugh and eat like how we used to. i know your world doesn't revolve around me alone and that you have other things to worry about in life too. i wish you all the best in everything you do and a very happy new year.

Naz&Fida,
the only reason why we meet up is only to eat. its amazing that we can still talk to each other and laugh at things together. and as we leave 2009 behind, i would want nurul nazira to tell me where on earth is my shirt?!

Fong&Yassy&Faz,
even when i turned 60, i would still remember how loud i sang the birthday song to faz and how the whole canteen looked at me. thank you for sitting beside me at the parade square to answer my last minute doubts about POA. happy new year and see you on the 9th.

Geraldine&Ying&Carolyn
you guys are the biggest bully in the world. you guys are so merciless and forever bullying me but its okay, i pinched your stomach enough and i'm very satisfied now. you guys were my laughing machine and the first one to listen to my lame-est jokes every night. no matter where we go after this, i know i can still count on you guys to accompany me to play pool. wait for my message for new year celebration.

TIME TO CUT THE CAKE!

2009-12-26T17:11:00.000+08:00

TO MY ONE AND ONLY FONG,

congratulations on finally turning 17. only God knows the feeling in you each time i tease you about being 16 when i'm already 17. haha. so now, no more teasing you till march next year. and and and, wait for your birthday present okay. i promise it will be something worth the wait. ;)

2009-12-18T21:41:00.002+08:00

you people should go check out the new friendster.

i see you when you make it through

2009-12-15T20:22:00.000+08:00

i look like an oxymoron in this picture trying to make funny funny things.

i feel like blogging but i have no idea what to blog about. i have been thinking about how should the whole family celebrate my grandma's birthday this sunday and how we should make it more special this year. but for now, i have 2 hours to clean up my room before my mum comes home and start shouting her lungs at me for being such a disgusting girl.

go team singapore!

2009-12-10T21:28:00.001+08:00

do you know that this is the strongest swimming contingent from Team Singapore?

do you know that Jacqueline the one from Naval Base is part of Team Singapore? she's representing Singapore in Taekwondo and she have won a bronze for us.

do you know that Quah Ting Wen broke Jocelyn Yeo's record by 2 seconds?
do you know that Singapore is top of the table with 11 gold?

NOT BAD SIA MY COUNTRY! IT FEELS SO GOOD TO BE SEEING MY COUNTRY'S NAME AT THE TOP OF THE TABLE!

i used to roll the dice

2009-12-10T14:29:00.002+08:00

i'm leading such a healthy lifestyle now. let me share with you my 'productive' schedule which i have been living with for the past 4 weeks.

1030: wake up just in time for Oprah

1030-1130: watch Oprah and eat my breakfast

1130-1400: sit obediently in front of the computer

1400-1430: watch I Not Stupid Too on Channel 8

1430-1500: sit in the kitchen and pretend to be reading the newspaper

when i'm actually feeling hungry but my grandma is still cooking

1500-1600: watch Growing Up on 5 and eat lunch

1600-1700: watch Manja Lara on Suria

1700-1800: watch Ellen on 5

1800-1830: watch Entertainment Tonight on 5

1830-1915: channel surfing

1915-2045: go for religious class

2045-2130: watch Rafflesia on Sensasi

2130-2230: watch whatever show on Suria

2230-2300: watch On The First Beat on Channel U

2300-0230: watch movie on my psp

0245-1030: sleep and dream and dream and sleep

i know it is so pig-ish. its not that i don't want to find a job and earn some money for my entertainment but my mum would say that i should just sit at home and pay back my sleeping debt that has been cleared so far. my resolution to slim down during the holidays have long been ignored. anyway, i didn't follow the schedule obediently everyday as on some days i might be out playing pool with Fong or Geraldine. haha. not bad ah? okay lah, its 1430 already, time to pretend. :D

2009-11-24T17:22:00.002+08:00

I want to share everything with you,

and it sucks that i can't.

to my very faithful junior

2009-11-24T00:46:00.003+08:00

i can't wait to meet you on wednesday!!! thanks for always getting online late at night when everybody is fast asleep and constantly reminding me that its not the end of the world yet. i cherish you for always wanting to listen and never ever interupt me while i'm expressing my sorrows. and i really treasure the moments where i would come up to you and repeat the whole story a million times just to let you assure me that you will be there for me, forever, like you have always did for the past 13 years. you know i love you like cheebong, ying.

2009-11-21T23:13:00.002+08:00

I spent the last two years trying to fit into your idea of perfect,

but clearly, I am not good enough for you.

AAAAA-TENNNNN-TION!

2009-11-18T19:47:00.003+08:00

me, i, wo, am going swimming with geraldine chen li jie, ah buang, tomorrow at safra at 1100. and i tell you, if i never get dark tomorrow, i'll be very depressed. anyone want to follow? free entry since it'll be on me. boards and sunblock will be provided. or anyone want to join us for a delicious lunch? want? want? want? :D

2009-11-18T09:45:00.003+08:00

this girl is so kind. i was supposed to meet her for breakfast this morning at 9.30 but i couldn't get out of bed and get ready. so, i messaged her and said that we shall eat lunch instead once i'm done sleeping. and she immediately called and said "i let you sleep till 1030 okay." so awww.. sia. but i didn't sleep back. i got up and blog about her. haha. okay okay, i'll go take a shower now.

2009-11-16T14:25:00.002+08:00

i nearly died upon reaching the swimming pool today. serious. luckily Allah gave me another chance to redeem myself.

2009-11-13T11:23:00.002+08:00

meeting them in 15 minutes time to swim and get dark and also laugh at geraldine's small swimming costume. after that, will be meeting ying and carolyn for dinner. mr sun, please shine on us.

2009-11-12T21:48:00.003+08:00

dear cathryn, please message me once you read this. i know where to go for class outing already. i have a whole lot of good place to go and its all within our budget. faster! faster!

2009-11-11T16:53:00.000+08:00

I GOTTA FEELING THAT TONIGHTS GONNA BE A GOOD NIGHT!!!

2009-11-10T17:28:00.002+08:00

the initial plan was to go swimming today but since the sun decided to hide behind the clouds and let the rain pour, i chose to sleep in. i slept like a log for 5 freaking hours and now, i have to make it up by studying for paper 1.

fall for this

2009-11-10T01:20:00.003+08:00

its not going to be easy,

but i have to do it,

because at the end of the day,

i make a point to reflect on you.

you changed my perception,

with all those hurtful words.

i love you till it hurts.

play play only lah. how can i be so emo? i not so cheebong lor!

don't speak, please.

2009-11-09T19:36:00.002+08:00

shut up lah, shut up lah

i've been such a pig today. i woke up at 1245 and immediately switched on the computer to send kak nadiah the particulars. i bathed and went down to get condensed milk to eat it with nestum. after that, watched online movie till now. i was uploading definitely, maybe and i dozed off till 1900. when i woke up, i continued watching. cheebong! now i feel so sick because i've been watching movies and have yet to eat my meals.

2009-11-08T13:21:00.003+08:00

Thursday:

the initial plan was to catch a movie with geraldine, ying and carolyn but since my mum fetched me super late, i met them to eat only. after that, accompanied geraldine to cut her hair and all the way i was bitching with ying.

Friday:

met kak nadiah at orchard to watch sister's keeper. the whole cinema was crying and i just stood there watching the movie feeling so calm. and kak nadiah was so worried that i don't have feelings because i didn't cry. its not that i don't have feelings. its just that maybe i don't have siblings thats why i don't understand the feeling. after watching the movie, met geraldine at northpoint to get my everlast shirt. accompanied geraldine to pastamania as she have yet to eat her dinner.

Saturday:

met fong in the morning and went to the gym. hahaha. had new york pizza for lunch.

Sunday:

will be meeting geraldine and fong at 1530. so excited! faster! faster!

2009-11-05T22:08:00.001+08:00

SCHOOL'S OUT!

SCREAM AND SHOUT!!!!!

2009-11-04T18:03:00.002+08:00

not now please fever. not now. i have yet to sit for my favourite paper.

physics fever!

2009-11-03T13:02:00.003+08:00

i was happy when i managed to remember certain physics topics by hard last night, those which i planned to focus on. and immediately after i put my textbook aside, geraldine asked me about magnetism which is now daunting me. dinika, lend me your brain? i give you $2.

exam happiness!

2009-11-02T18:22:00.002+08:00

i would like to thank fong for teaching me the blast furnace and making me remember it word for word and also for being my kfc delivery this morning and also listening to my 'buy mc chicken burger', 'see mr see', stop calling geraldine a lion except dinika go woodlands eat maggi' last night. i would also like to thank ying for summarising globalisation for me and making things easier for me and also listening to me when i repeat the whole qualitative analysis, soluble salts and petroleum for countless times. wo chen de chen de ai ni men.

okay lah, thank dinika also lah for teaching me speed of reaction 10 minutes before going up to the hall. and also i would like to thank her for sitting beside me in the exam hall and writing at 200km/h that eventually affect me and led to the ugly handwriting on my script but its worth because i finish my paper! thank you hor, love you lah love you okay auntie!

2009-11-01T19:35:00.001+08:00

globalisation and venice are doing harm to my brain!!!! fuck lah, why cannot study bonding singapore only?!?!?! i'm so tired of memorising all the headings!!!! cheebye kia!

2009-10-31T12:17:00.002+08:00

i can't wait for o level to end because i have so many things to do. like cleaning up my pig-sty-like room, think about what i should do for people's birthday next year, go for class outing to wild wild wet, chalet, class bbq, cycling, swimming, movie date and many many more. and i also can't wait to get out of singapore and live life to the fullest. 11 november faster come lah!

2009-10-29T16:13:00.002+08:00

i love the fact that he always come out and sit outside the staff room for hours each time when i'm there. he make my temperature rise. i'm left with 5 days in school and i will make full use of it by forever waiting for you outside the dean's office. hehehehe. i see you tomorrow. :D

2009-10-28T19:20:00.002+08:00

i thank you very much for personally coming up to me and lift up my spirits again. you know i like you right. hehe. you are the only reason why i always come for maths remedial. hehehe.

nenek keropok!!!!

2009-10-25T16:36:00.002+08:00

i have english paper tomorrow at 1400 followed by maths paper 1 on tuesday then maths paper 2 on wednesday. and i still find it hard to part with the computer. theres this makcik who came knocking at my house door a moment ago and i tell you, i feel like fainting. because she was wearing tudong and carrying plastic bags and i was super scared that it was nenek keropok. and i tell you, i was reading all the prayers i could think of and i suddenly feel so scared. sial lah, what if its really nenek keropok? alamak makcik ni buat saye takot je, saye ni dahlah ader o level besok.

2009-10-24T16:07:00.003+08:00

with effect from 11th november, i'll be such a sweetheart to both dinika and cathryn by doing all the planning for class outings since i haven't been doing my job as the class secretary for the past 10 months. and i'll be a good classmate and come for all class outings. i'm so excited for this! for now, i can't be too excited as i have a major exam to sit for on monday. and with that, i have to get out of here and slog for my future. say a little prayer for me.

ear candy

2009-10-24T15:27:00.002+08:00

watch this! it made my saturday and i am so addicted to it. hahaha. time for maths now! enjoy watching!

i know i don't please you

2009-10-21T21:37:00.002+08:00

i let mdm sheila down by not doing her mock exam despite attending the class this morning. instead of doing the situational writing, i went around the canteen to talk to everybody. met fida after remedial today for lunch cum dinner and then went to her house to borrow her curve ruler. met geraldine after that to teach her chemistry but we ended up studying POA instead. and so tomorrow, i'll be having science practical at 9 and will be quarantined till 1330. lets see who will message me in the morning. ;)

pls don't stop the crap

2009-10-20T17:22:00.004+08:00

i hate goodbyes because i know next year, eveybody will change including me. so before everybody change, lets squeeze the crap out of everyone. on a happier note, i've found what i want and i know who really brings me happiness.

undefined bond

2009-10-14T18:00:00.002+08:00

i cried when the teachers were wishing us good luck. it started off with Ms Yzelman and you know when she started talking some sense into you, you just can't hold back your tears. and so, fong and i were the crybabies. and i hate it when this thing go on and on and so does my tears. i have never cried this bitterly before and i have never felt this feeling of losing the class ever. i am very happy that everyone is very close now and the bond we shared that can never be bought. thanks for the tears and laughter for the past 2 years, Integrity 4-3. okay i'm off to go on a movie and supper date with Ms Chia and Mr Chua!

2009-10-13T22:38:00.002+08:00

ouh ya, one more thing. i can't belive that i actually slept for 2 hours in class today while waiting for Chemistry remedial to start. i was sleeping when the uncle came in to lock the classroom and i told him, "uncle, got remedial. until 5. don't lock first." and i happily continue sleeping. i can't believe that i just did that. haha.

as we go on...

2009-10-13T21:56:00.003+08:00

STOMP '09 was super awesome! with the companions and everything. i really enjoyed myself last saturday. i'm so excited for tomorrow as finally, its Graduation Day! and i can't wait to see the video of me moonwalking in class being revealed to teachers whom always say that i'm very quiet. haha. after Graduation Day, we'll be going on a movie and supper date with Ms Chia and Mr Chua and we'll be watching Haeundae. i so can't wait for tomorrow! we'll see who will be the crybaby. ;)

2009-10-10T21:13:00.002+08:00

met Lucia at 10 and went for breakfast. accompanied her while she waited for the Stompers to come and since Gwendolyn couldn't make it, i went for Stomp 09! once Lucia is done sharing photos with me, i'll update again.

my heart just has to be sure

2009-10-03T13:44:00.004+08:00

don't forget to remember me

I'll be back, so be there for me

please keep me in your heart if we ever have to part

don't forget to remember me.

2009-10-02T18:59:00.005+08:00

we look like the logistics team. haha. so cute. they are the best of classmates. you can find different kinds of people in this class. theres the male version of rihanna, the tallest boy in the school is in this class, theres the world's smartest hooligan, theres a team singapore basketball player, theres a girl who call herself elephant and many many more. they make you study for major exams, they make you feel like one big family, they laugh at all the jokes you make. they always open up to different views. they always gang up to postpone tests. they accept one another. eventhough we always tease one another in front of the whole class, at the end of the day, these people are the ones who will cheer you on. i told you, retaining is not that bad afterall. ;)

i'm making you feel brand new

2009-10-02T17:52:00.007+08:00

i can't help but to switch on the computer and get myself updated. i'm filled with agony yet again when someone updated me about you. but i shan't sound like a loser and start talking about it over and over again. i think i should just move on even if you are treating me this way because obviously you are better off without me and you are proud of it. i'm very happy to see you having new close friends and doing millions of things that will make you forget about me. only me and God knows how much i miss you, when can we meet?

on a happier note, i'm very happy with the way all the teachers are being so nice to us as Graduation Day is drawing near. i can't wait for Graduation Day! and since we are graduating soon, i have been such an irritating whore in class. and i think on Graduation Day, everybody will cry including me. haha. this is so exciting!!!

she said "why don't you just drop dead?"

2009-09-29T17:50:00.002+08:00

i vow not to blog, not to log in to Facebook, not to blog-hop, not to sing karaoke, not to check my emails and not to switch on the computer for the next 23 days. i'm going to switch off from the outside world. i don't care which idol is going home or whatsoever. i promise to study and make sure everything goes into my head. i promise to not hog on the phone, to not waste my time playing games and also to have enough sleep and not watch psp videos in the middle of the night. i promise to be home latest by 1800. i promise to start studying at 1930 and stay put at my study table till i can't take it anymore. this have to go on for the next few weeks only.

i'll tell you what you want to hear

2009-09-28T18:53:00.003+08:00

played floorball like no tomorrow during PE and now my right leg is super cramp. next week, i think i want to play badminton with Fong. okay okay, time for Chemistry!

what if? what if? what if?

2009-09-26T12:07:00.002+08:00

have anyone died while studying for O levels before? what if i die while trying to memorise the whole thing about Iraq? what if my brain burst in class during Maths lesson? what if i didn'twake up from my sleep during English lesson? what if i fainted during Chemistry and went into a deep coma? what if? what if? what if? what if theres no tomorrow for me? what if i got hit by a car when i'm crossing the road? what will happen at my funeral? will everybody be crying or will they be happy that i'm dead? have i said enough to what i want to say to all those people around me? have i told them that i love them very much and i couldn't thank them enough for making a difference in my life? if i get to celebrate my 18th birthday next year, please write me a eulogy and tell me what is it that you'll never forget about me.

i hate you for hiding from me

2009-09-25T15:15:00.007+08:00

fong, i can't promise you anything since i have to bring someone along. and i have this strong feeling that i will end up going alone. so, we shall see lah how okay. i found out something very hurtful. yes yes, its about you. who else am i always talking about here right?

2009-09-24T19:08:00.001+08:00

faizal mraz??? stop it lor. i bet the whole yishun primary agree with me. go home and sing your backstreet boys song. don't you know that you are so artificial? haha.

2009-09-24T18:58:00.003+08:00

i can still remember her singing at the back of the bus on the way home from Tuas Navy 4 years back. and i still remember how troublesome she was when she insisted on transferring to Northland. and i can still feel the sadness when she left us. rachel, rachel. its good to see you on tv.

how do you speak?

2009-09-24T18:04:00.002+08:00

after school, we had to do this pattern quiz by MOE and it was super lame so i decided to just shade anyhow and sleep instead. after the test, went to the canteen to eat before heading home. i think i have a habit of sleeping in class now especially during English and after that, i'll feel really bad for Mdm Sheila. i have a date with Mrs Koh tomorrow after school and that means i have to do my Maths by tonight. and, the whole family is at Sentosa now without me. its okay, its okay. i'm always at Sentosa too without them what right.

don't you think you are being self-centered?

2009-09-23T20:09:00.002+08:00

i'm a happy kid today because firstly, i slept in class, twice and secondly, Ms Yzelman approved my Social Studies essays and lastly i ate long john for dinner. english was so bored today so i decided to sleep during Mdm Sheila's lesson while she enjoy consulting the rest about their compos. and immediately when the bell rang which marks the end of POA period, i put my head on the table and slept till 1600. i couldn't believe it that i didn't go home straight instead i stayed in class just to sleep. haha. went home with Dinika and commented about the lower sec students. i was so happy to see long john on the table when i got home. i gobble my food and then its time to go home. and now, i have to do Geography.

its not me, its you

2009-09-22T19:39:00.002+08:00

talked to Dinika about some things and she can't agree more. haha. i love it when Dinika can see things the way i do. its very relieving to know that someone is also going through the same thing as you. haha. at least someone can understand your feelings. okay, i have to do my maths or else i have to stay back for night class tomorrow. and to Fong, get well soon. i know you are already missing me.

2009-09-21T15:08:00.004+08:00

all he do is sleep, sleep and sleep.

this year's theme is PURPLE!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA FROM ALL OF US!

and so to all, enjoy your Hari Raya while i enjoy doing Maths. tsk!

specially for all those that were left out earlier

2009-09-20T12:49:00.004+08:00

to those people whose pictures are not up, you are clearly not forgotten. the reason why your picture is not up is because i don't take picture with you guys. especially people like azie, dian, lina, wirda, sabrina, yassy, faz and KD. i'm sorry for all my wrongdoings and my rudeness. please forgive me and let bygones be bygones. selamat hari raya!

and to all my friend's parents, sisters and brothers, i would like to apologise for not returning your daughter/sister home on time. maybe there were times when i didn't acknowledge you when i see you outside, i'm truly sorry for that. please do forgive me.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

2009-09-20T02:40:00.011+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

Sungai buaya banyak buaya,

Pucuk paku banyak paku,

Hari Raya dah pun tiba,
Bila kau nak mintak maaf kat aku?

Dear Kak Nadiah,

i know i'm very lazy and complacent most of the time during tuition. i always lie on the table and start whining. and without fail, i know i always make your blood boil every saturday. and i know that if my mother were to ever allow you to slap me, you would already have done so. hehe. as today is Hari Raya, i would like to apologise for my wrongdoings and the time when i misbehave. i know you would listen to me every saturday about my never ending hot stuff story although i am very long-winded. whatever, you have to only bear with me for the next 1 month. i'm very sorry for being so spoilt. hehe. ;)

Dear Izdi,

since last year, we haven't been that close. but you accept me for who i am and you laugh to my lame jokes. and when my mum give you a lift, you know how to make yourself comfortable in the car and talk to my mum about all the Korean Drama and that makes my mum love you. you know that i hate playing badminton with you because you always make me run like a crazy horse while you stand at just one position. but i guess, its all thanks to your drilling that i'm forever cute. hehe. i admit there were times when i talked bad about you. and so, i would like to apologise for all that. please get well soon, i want to play badminton.

Dear Naz,

thank you for letting me win the Cold War with you. hehe. i know i'm very stupid during tuition but i'm just trying to make you feel like a genius. haha. thank you for being Kak Naz and knocking some sense into me. i'm sorry for not taking your art file. but you know some things happen for a reason right? its relieving to see that you've not changed a bit and you still understand me each time i complain about my father. i know i have so many sins, you too. haha. so, i'm very sorry if there were times when my jokes were really hurtful. i know i'm so vocal. so, please do forgive me. nenek keropok rocks!! :D

Dear Fida,

its a pleasure to get back with you again. i promise, after my O level, i will cycle down to your house and bring you your favourite cheese fries. sorry for being an ass all the time. thank you for everything we had before. from sisterz till now. and please know that i'm only 7 bustops away form you. i'm glad that we can still talk. and i'm sorry that i accidentally shouted at you. you know what i mean, fida. ;)

Dear Fong,

thank you for tolerating my nonsense in class. i know i'm so irritating that you just have to ignore me at times but i know that now you are already missing me right? haha. i know there were times when you just feel like strangling me but thats what i'm for right? ask julie. haha. i'm sorry for always talking to you during Social Studies and you ended up getting scolded by Ms Yzelman. i'm sorry for constantly making you listen to my riddles over and over again. i'm sorry for squeezing your shoulder real hard when i walked behind you. thanks for being so smart and teaching me when i'm such a dungu. i can't wait to see you on Tuesday!!

Dear Julie,

firstly, you have to know that i miss you very much. i know this no longer mean anything to you but well, i just want you to know. earlier tonight, i was sitting in front of the door hoping that you would appear at my doorstep to send me your kuih raya like you always do. perhaps that was too much to ask for. i know you will never appear even when i pray so hard because i know you are still mad at me. maybe we have changed as an individual but i have always pray that things between us will change for the best when you say that time heal all wounds. it was very awkward when we meet after a very long time. probably, no more common things to talk about. i know if you have only one bullet left, you would shoot me first. i know 99% of the time i'm being such an asshole and i'm truly sorry for that. i'm sorry for not being there when you needed me the most. i'm sorry for putting all the blame on you. i'm sorry for being so rude and everything along that line. i am seriously very sorry and i regret all those stupidity. i have always been cherishing the times we had together, everything we did together, every single thing we shared and many more. please know that i'm very sorry for everything and i miss you very very very much. :(

2009-09-19T16:16:00.003+08:00

i have 2 Social Studies essays left plus 3 Geography. i am not going to continue. i need a rest before i start feeling nauseous. so, that calls for a nap.

2009-09-19T11:29:00.002+08:00

i really hope i could finish 10 Social Studies essays plus 3 Geography essays by 1800. ms yzelman is driving me crazy!!

will you please be a little bit courteous?

2009-09-18T23:09:00.003+08:00

these days, i have been thinking on what to say to different people. and since i'm not the type who get on my knees and cry and seek for forgiveness, i should really mean my words and say it sincerely. but i feel that its not right to seek for forgiveness here. haha. and to those who are still doing last minute baking, enjoy! now, i have Maths, Physics, Geography, Social Studies and Chemistry to do. i really hope that my UMNO uncle from Malaysia will not sleep over at my house tomorrow. i really need to do my work and i can't have you guys at my house especially when you keep on staring at me and keep asking me about my dad. my gran's is much more spacious than mine, so you should sleep there instead. ;)

i still don't hate you for what you did

2009-09-17T20:02:00.003+08:00

i am feeling so shitty because i forgot to take my Chemistry Section B when the whole stack was with me the whole day. instead, i returned that stack to Mrs Ong without taking it for myself. so now, i have no other choice but to do Maths and English. another thing, someone stole my slippers! whoever stole my slippers, i curse that you'll have milions of blisters on your feet. asshole!

and i know that you know that

2009-09-16T22:43:00.002+08:00

i swear i didn't get myself a new pair of listening ears because i know you are the best i could ever have. trust me, bitch. so shall i finish up your food on Thursday? ;)

and its all because of you

2009-09-16T17:45:00.002+08:00

i have already checked online and it says that F1 is on the 25, 26 and 27 September. so, will you go for lunch with me on Thursday? please don't tell me that you have to attend the Press Conference. please, please, please..

bon voyage....

2009-09-16T16:55:00.006+08:00

have fun in India though you shouldn't be there now as we are celebrating Hari Raya this Sunday. make sure you bring home shirts for me. don't forget my duit raya okay, i don't accept Indian rupee. i will eat ketupat with you on Tuesday then. takecare, and if you see Dev Patel, tell him that you have a little sister in Singapore who is 2 years younger than him. ;)

i'm not lying this time round

2009-09-15T22:51:00.002+08:00

i am still missing you as much as i did when you left me for school trips. please believe me, its true, i swear.

she wear short skirts i wear t-shirt

2009-09-15T17:43:00.004+08:00

i was practically yawning during the whole two periods of Chemistry. i don't know whether its Mrs Ong or me but each time i step into the lab, i feel so lethargic and i can't help but to put my head on the table. but i love it when Mrs Ong start giving her adult jokes to us and its funny to see her laughing to herself even when the whole class don't get her jokes. i slept during recess in front of Fong while Fong continue with her Chemistry homework. i can't wait for Hari Raya because i have so many things to say to so many people, again. so, do check my blog on Hari Raya. who knows i might be seeking for your forgiveness here. hehe. read hor bitch, read.

BOO KANYE WEST!!!!

2009-09-15T17:40:00.003+08:00

Kanye West is so bad! how could he do that to Taylor Swift? i mean he can say that Beyonce's videos are good but not when Taylor Swift is receiving her award lah. so rude!

i can't change the way you feel inside

2009-09-14T16:43:00.004+08:00

all my days were spent by the telephone. all i needed was a call. where were you when everything was falling apart? you never left me any messages or miss call me. if it happens that i die before you, ransack my whole room and you will find a letter. i'm serious. does this shows how important you are to me? you know who you are.

2009-09-14T15:30:00.003+08:00

ouh my god. i'm so thirsty today. i will literally gulp down my tea later at 1906. now, i really need to sleep.

can somebody please judge this?

2009-09-13T17:34:00.001+08:00

i hate it when you don't see that i'm trying. you think you are the only one who is utterly utterly utterly disappointed here? you think i am not disappointed in you too? you think i don't remember what you said to me on the 3rd of July? you want me to take the first step, i clearly did but to no avail. you didn't respond to it. worse still, you ignored. and you are trying to say that i'm putting the blame on you? look, i tried to talk things with you and you didn't give me response and you say that its not your fault? come on lah, if you don't have the intention to say that i bribed you, you would not have said that even when we were fighting. it is because you already have the intention to say it and its already at the tip of your tongue and you can't control your anger on that day, thats why you let everything out. right? you were disappointed because i said that you've changed. you mean you didn't change? please think lah. were you the sort who keep mum when theres problem between us? were you the one who ignore everything and happily sweep the problem under the carpet? how do you expect me to make things clear when you refuse to pick up my calls, reply my messages or even spend one day to really talk about this? bear this in mind, i'm more disappointed in you because you are willing to trade me. now tell me, how should i feel?

we could do it real big

2009-09-12T22:15:00.003+08:00

this will only happen when your tutor is late for tuition and you are in the midst of preparation for a major exam!

had tuition at 1200 and kak nadiah was acting fierce with me. but when she started talking about my senior, she became a very happy girl. after tuition, went to my gran's. and my mum said that i'll be preparing the food for break fast later. so i had to prepare spaghetti with my aunt's help. however, the spaghetti turn out to be hard because my mum bought the wrong brand. i'm still at my gran's sitting infront of the computer despite having so much homework that have yet to be done.

2009-09-11T13:56:00.000+08:00

Fida is done bathing so i have to go get ready now. will be going Anchorpoint to get Fida's shoe and then will head to Changi Airport to eat popeye! and we will be going Anchorpoint via bus and Naz say that we have to take 855 to Queensway. ouh my god! i bet by the time we reach Queensway, the three of us can't talk already. okay okay, the toilet is calling me. have fun rotting at home, people. and to Dinika, have fun doing chemistry. ;)

it ain't too late to work this thing out

2009-09-11T03:45:00.001+08:00

i'm done sahur-ing and now, i want to sleep and dream of dying. i can't wait for Hari Raya because i want to send my psp for repair. the volume button got stuck while i was pressing it the other day. and thanks geraldine, for pressing the minus button, now i can ony hear people whispering. -.-

you know that it troubles me

2009-09-10T18:20:00.003+08:00

i almost slept during chemistry if Mrs Ong hadn't call my name. after chemistry, waited for Fong. she showed me her MAC stuff and after staring at the mirror for almost 45 minutes, i realise that my eyebags are more obvious! how can this be happening when hari raya is next sunday? tsk. tonight i'll sleep at 2100 lah!

who light the fire?

2009-09-09T16:48:00.000+08:00

woke up at 1000, just in time for POA. cab-ed to school with Fong as i was super lazy to walk. reached school at 1040 and surprisingly, we were the first one to arrive. POA lasted for only one and a half hour. i think i want to go for a haircut tomorrow as i'll be going on a break fast date with Naz and Fida on friday. i have so many things to tell them. for now, i think i need to talk to Dinika about soemthing. because whenever i tell her something, all she do is laugh. well atleast, her laughter is contagious and it'll make me laugh to.

2009-09-08T16:26:00.000+08:00

i'm off to meet Sabrina and make her the happiest person today. okay lah, not. bye..

always making time for you

2009-09-08T10:42:00.002+08:00

meeting Fong soon to meet Ms Yzelman for SS. suppose to bowl with Naz and Fida today but since Naz is only free before 4 and i have SS till 1, it'll be quite rushing. so, plan cancel.. i'll be meeting Sabrina at 1645 to give her surprise! i'm so excited for it! i have a feeling that i'll bump into Dinika in the bus later. okay, i want to shower now.